“Through a relationship with Jesus Christ, the risen Lord and Savior I had conquered my drug and alcohol addiction.”
I am a person that left the homosexual lifestyle. Being raised in an unstable environment of a drug-infested home, my childhood was far from normal. Experiencing violence and mental abuse from a young age, I struggled to make it through my teenage years. I longed for love and affection from my distant father, but this desire was never fulfilled as a young child. And at the age of 13, I started to experiment with hard drugs, alcohol, and premarital sex.
I struggled with my identity as a woman and found it difficult to connect with male friends. My interests and hobbies were always defined as masculine, such as sports, video games, and sports cars which also resulted in a struggle to fit in with female friends at school.
At the age of 15, I had my first relationship with a female, thinking that finally, I had found true freedom and happiness, something to let me escape from realities at home. But this was short-lived until, at the age of 16, I found myself in my first lesbian long-term relationship. It was another trap of false hope and deep heartache. During this time my physical appearance began changing as well, I started wearing men’s clothes, having a shaved and short hair, I was becoming to look more and more masculine every day. During this 2 year relationship, my Parents discovered a church in Malta by the name of ‘River of Love’. I was Baffled by their radical transformation as they attended this church, and I secretly started to question my own beliefs as an atheist.
Seeing my parents going from drug abuse and zero religious interest, to suddenly claiming statements that, “Jesus was real” and they had been “saved” and “born again” stroke a deeper sense of curiosity inside me. Sadly upon reading verses regarding homosexuality in the Bible, my heart even grew even colder and stone-like. I had no desire to have God in my life, so for many years I continued to struggle with relationships, became addicted to drugs, cigarettes, and alcohol. Living a life of misery, with no hope and purpose.
'Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. '
II Corinthians 5:17
My parents still loved me as a lesbian but always told me the truth about God and that the lifestyle I was living would result in dire consequences. Then I started to visit the church and after a while, it was as if my eyes were suddenly opened. I was convicted of my sins and had a new desire for repentance. I realized God was not angry at me, but He was eager to welcome me with open arms and be the Father that was always missing in my life!
'Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord; '
Through this, I went back and forth to church several times as a backslider until at last, by the age of 21, I had surrendered all to Jesus and is now continuously growing in my God-given identity. Through a relationship with Jesus Christ, the risen Lord and Savior I had conquered my drug and alcohol addiction. Quit nasty habits like smoking within a matter of a few weeks. I even cut previous contact with women to pursue a life of holiness and purity. Spending more and more time with the Father in prayer and through the help of my pastors and leaders in the church, I started to appreciate my femininity, slowly changing my wardrobe and outer appearance. It is a journey I'm is still embarking on today!
'and that you put on the new man which was created according to God, in true righteousness and holiness. if indeed you have heard Him and have been taught by Him, as the truth is in Jesus: that you put off, concerning your former conduct, the old man which grows corrupt according to the deceitful lusts, and be renewed in the spirit of your mind, '
My current passion is to give importance and value to people who wish, out of their own will, leave homosexual practices and live in their true biological identities. To see them respected and honored in society, for taking brave and bold decisions amid cultures that believe otherwise.
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